I'm torn!

I'm torn about how to feel right now. Part of me wants the next four weeks to fly by at warp speed so that we can go and get our son. Then the other part of me realizes that this would mean wishing my life away, the life of my family, and the remainder of my children's summer break. So you can see my predicament here...right? I guess I'll just keep living day to day and our travel date will be here soon enough. I'm just so excited to meet Jack and get started with the next phase of this journey.